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POSTED AT 10:13 PM as a stickied post

imacoffeejunkie

so this site is still alive. hmm. i really should be grateful. i have most of my old stuff here. (which really would be too absurdly time-consuming to move over to my new blog). so here all of it will stay til the end of time, or perhaps the end of the internet, or maybe just the end of tabulas - who's to say which will come first.

anyway, for those interested... (although i really doubt that) i have an active blog, random sketches. i'd love it if any of you could come by and visit. ^_^

after this post i sincerely doubt i'll be posting anymore here since it's really hard enough to maintain one blog let alone two.


Feeling: nostalgic

ooh...
POSTED AT 02:02 PM

imacoffeejunkie

(c) http://www.atento.ru/pornoname/

Walk Down The Road
POSTED AT 02:16 PM

imacoffeejunkie

Walk Down The Road
Cynthia Alexander

walked the streets today mindless
of the way I argued with my feet
wanted to go this way but
went that way fate
had me in its grip
& by chance & grace both
I wonder
why I suddenly looked up
& in your deep, deep eyes
saw the Smile of all Smiles

in my naked wanderings I thought
I heard you whisper my name
there you are soft and slumbered
and cradled in her arms
well I try to understand why
you set me free
was it love or insecurity you let me be

I walk down the road, I
look up at the sky
now I know why
now I know why

reasoning has conquered me
I can't and won't deny the fact
my heart beats a special drummm
only for you
but I'm glad to be on my own
I have never been this free
from all suspicion and the pain
grown year upon year

give me
s p a c e
give me
t i m e
don't lose yourself
in a n y o n e

water rushes down my back down
the water runs walking in the rain
then seemed beyond conception
I've never been so alive
so much in love with life
and from the gray, gray sky
fell the Tear of all Tears

hehe
POSTED AT 10:02 PM

imacoffeejunkie

chatting with rosa

Guia Padilla: you're alive!
ichiro: run... run... jump... hug!!!
ichiro: mwah.
ichiro: amishu!!!
ichiro: buhay ka pa pala!
Guia Padilla: hehe.
Guia Padilla: kamusta na?
ichiro: ayun...
ichiro: adik na naman
ichiro: i think i just found the thing to take me out of my slump
Guia Padilla: hehe. cocaine ka na ba ngayon? o marijuana pa rin?
Guia Padilla:
Guia Padilla: ano yun? LSD...?
ichiro: work!
Guia Padilla: ako rin kulang sa tulog.
ichiro: astig na yung dyaryo
ichiro: okay thats an overstatement but well...
Guia Padilla: okay.
Guia Padilla: san ka ngayon? visayas ave?
Guia Padilla: musta pala family, etc?
ichiro: visayas, ok naman cila
Guia Padilla: ba't kayo nag-away nung dec? if you don't mind me asking...
ichiro: grabe.,
ichiro: alam mo bang isa pala akong nak
Guia Padilla: ba't kayo nag-away nung dec? if you don't mind me asking...
ichiro: grabe.,
ichiro: alam mo bang isa pala akong nakakatakot na nil;alang
Guia Padilla: astig 'tong pc, ambilis.
Guia Padilla: nakakatakot? bakit? nag-threaten kang mag-aaartista na lang?
ichiro: kanina, meron akong gender studies
ichiro: e nursing class yung kasama ko kasi
ichiro: nasaraduhan ako ng class sa fa
ichiro: so iba na naman ang atmosphere
ichiro: the thing about fa people is nobody bothers reciting
ichiro: or at least nobody wants to speak up and be a smarty pants
ichiro: so i found myself getting ,,, how do you say this.... high?
ichiro: yung adrenalin ko sobra.
ichiro: kung anu ano nang pinagsasabi ko na di ko rin maintindihan
ichiro: pero ang labo ng kwento ko
ichiro: kasi ganito
ichiro: nung una,
ichiro: kanina yun, inassign akong leader
ichiro: ng group namin
ichiro: ako inassign nila kasi di nila ako kilala
ichiro: akala nila tatanggi ako.
ichiro: they thought wrong
ichiro: tapos
ichiro: nung minimiting ko sila
ichiro: aba ang babastos hindi nila ako siniseryoso
ichiro: so nung magdiscuss si mam nagrecite ako agad.
ichiro: paulit ulit
ichiro: nung naghanap si mam ng magrereport for monday
ichiro: taas agad ako ng kamay
ichiro: e nakakabobo naman yung mga tanong na nirecitan ko
ichiro: gusto ko lang talaga mang-gago at mangtrip
ichiro: tanong ba naman---
ichiro: what are your expectations from this class
ichiro: una kong sagot:
ichiro: to sift between the traditional social structures and gender stereotyping prevalent in the Philippines
ichiro: tapos tahimik sila.
ichiro: gago kasi ako
ichiro: mayamaya nagrerecite uli sila,
ichiro: andamiing walang kwentang shit expectations
ichiro: nung huli nantrip uli ako
ichiro: last expectation yun:
ichiro: to learn how to counterbalance the possibly catastrophic effects of the patriarchal system on Filipino families
ichiro: tahimik ulit sila
ichiro: o di ba?
ichiro: gago lang siguro talaga ako
Guia Padilla: nyahahahahahah~!!!!! galing mo p're.
ichiro: thank you
rosa padilla: ichiro: sobrang high ko nga pagtapos e
ichiro: kasi
ichiro: nung tinawag ko yung group mates ko
ichiro: nakinig agad sila
ichiro: tapos sabi nung isa, ate,
ichiro: totoo ba?
ichiro: taga-UP ka daw..
ichiro: nyahahaha!!!
Guia Padilla: ano'ng sabi mo?
ichiro: eh di nagsmile
ichiro: labo ba...
ichiro: badtrip kasi ako dun sa makulit at maingay sa grupo ko
ichiro: yung pinkabastos
ichiro: sinabi niya agad at the outset, galing daw siya lasalle
ichiro: nyorts.
ichiro: so ayun
Guia Padilla: hehehe.
ichiro: kanina pa nga ako high
ichiro:
ichiro: night shift ka na daw?
Guia Padilla: sino'ng nagsabi?
ichiro: dad mo
ichiro: tumawag ako senyo baog magnet
ichiro: bago
Guia Padilla: a~h. oo. 4p-1a ako.
ichiro: so bampira ka na nya
ichiro: nasan ba yung trabaho mo?>
Guia Padilla: Ortigas, Psig City. Game Moderator in training.
ichiro: wah...
ichiro: e pano ka umuuwi nyan?
Guia Padilla: taxi po.
ichiro: wah. spensive
Guia Padilla: minsan sumasabay. kaka-start ko lang last week kaya limited pa ang means ko ng pag-uwi.
Guia Padilla: well, kasama talaga sa budget 'yon.
ichiro: wehehe
ichiro: sorry. nagrestart yung pc

nothing.
POSTED AT 07:35 PM

imacoffeejunkie

why is it that every time i get through the holiday season i always find myself in a slump?

i was supposed to finish the layout for the lit folio during vacation. then i found myself putting it off every time i even tried to open the pc. is there an AA for sims2 addicts? i've had the game for quite a while now and my families have grown really large. (i have a 6 generation house.) i still haven't grown tired of it.

i kept convincing myself i'm just trying to relax - to get my vacation. but i'm really worried my quirk is catching up on me.

whoever said "when i'm good, i'm (really) good; when i'm bad i'm really bad" really put it in perspective. i seem to swing between being a workaholic (with an average 5 hours of sleep per week) and a complete slug. and it's not the average person's mood swing. i can go for at least two-three terms with overflowing creative juices and energy. then i'll trip all over myself and find myself in a rut.

i usually need something to jolt me back into action. *waiting, waiting*



i miss loving Chritmas.


i almost slept through Christmas and the New Year. except i never do sleep earlier than 1pm so it's really quite impossible to do it.

i used to wake up to hot coco and pancakes. our traditional Christmas breakfast. and there was nothing more important or immediate than checking the year's loot. it was all pig-simple.


sometimes i wonder what would happen if met my ten year old self. would she like me for what i am now?
i seem to remember being an artist topping my wish list along with being a writer at that time. well i am that. sort of anyway.


argh. can't seem to focus...

Listening to: some guy playing tantra
Watching: same guy playing tantra

meeting mr. squirrell
POSTED AT 08:08 PM

imacoffeejunkie

i almost got robbed just now.

i was on a jeep to the boarding house when somewhere in fairview this squirrelly-looking guy gets on and sits beside me. it was all i could do not to completely freak out at the way he kept sitting so near when the whole jeep was practically empty. every now and then he'd sniff and rub his nose and look shiftily at me.
he told the driver he's getting off at commonwealth - the last time i had something snatched, the guy got off at commonwealth. (no i am not really jumping into conclusions, it just made me a bit more nervous) i took out a ballpen and clutched it in my right hand while my left tried to protect all my stuff. (the christmas party's on wednesday so i had quite a few stuff with me - apart from a bulging backpack, i had a tupperware filled with uncooked ingredients for pasta, a paper-bag filled with projects, shoes and clothing)
anyway, commonwealth came and went and the guy just sat there. sniffing, rubbing and looking all shifty and squirrelly. and all the while i clutched my pen and held my belongings while thinking where should i hit him when he does something? at first i thought i should go for the eye since the ballpen would probably do the most damage there, but then i figured he could block it rather easily because it's a bit awkward to move my hand up towards his face. so i decided to aim for his crotch instead.
i guess he couldn't figure out what to do with me, because as we reached tandang sora he asked the driver if he just missed his stop. (yeah right, as if i'd believe that.) he seemed to know where he was going and he never gave a hint that he didn't really know where he was supposed to go.
i was half-sure and half-scared i'd have to do what i was planning. i've never stabbed anyone with a ballpen before and i'm pretty sure it would've been messy. that is if it even worked out at all. i shudder to think what would happen otherwise.
Feeling: yeah right...

POSTED AT 12:01 PM

imacoffeejunkie

this year is trying to bleed my dry. i haven't posted anything in a while because i never could find enough time to type a few crappy words on my pc.
i'd be awfully glad to have the rooster year ended. please please please bring in the dog year.
i can't seem to do anything right lately. everything's falling apart. okay. check that. everything's getting worse.
christmas is coming up and i wish it wouldn't yet because i don't really think i'm prepared yet. it's not that i'm doing any shopping. but i do hate malls in december. it's just that it seems like the final flush that sends this whole year down the drain.
i haven't accomplished enough this year. i need more time. drat but that line really should get a vacation. i need more time. it's bad enough i use it to plead with my prof. "sir, i can't come up with the terra cotta relief by tomorrow... i need more time."
"sir, i can't really finish four plates in one day, i need more time."
i sound like i'm complaining.
but taking stock, there isn't any other place i'd rather be. okay, of course i'd love to be back in UP. but that's different.
i'm fine with getting my hands permanently encrusted with clay, paint, plaster, developing fluids and what not. i love it actually.
i'm fine with writing for a newspaper that pays for my education. i mean who'd be stupid enough to resent that - getting paid for doing what you love?
it's just that it's better when you see things from a distance. when you abstract things so that the sleepless nights and financial problems all seem to turn into harmless little spots.
but that's not how things go.
you have to get knee-deep in every inch of painful detail. yesterday's quarrell with the adviser, this morning's lost plate...
someone once told me that's what life is. damn but that's cheesy. life is in the details (and yes, they say god is there too...).
i love and hate every day.
i'm not making much sense. maybe because i'm writing with 2 hours sleep, a mild fever, and my finals breathing down my neck.
but yes, i lost my thread, christmas is coming. and i wish it didn't feel like another deadline to me.
Reading: rereading: siglo
Listening to: the comforting humming of the aircon unit
Watching: invalid field (how the hell could you post and watch?)
Feeling: stressed

oooh...
POSTED AT 09:13 PM

imacoffeejunkie

Joanne, the best Zodiac Match for your personality is Taurus

Taurus, the Bull (April 21 to May 21): This warmhearted and determined partner is just your type. Initially, a Taurus may catch your eye with a romantic gesture or their penchant for having a good time. But as you get to know them, you're even more likely to be drawn to your Taurean's unwavering devotion and dedication. People born under this sign typically know what they want out of life and stick by the decisions they've made. This devotion to their own truths can make members of this sign seem stubborn or critical at times. However, know that most Taureans are also sentimental types who like to focus on their romantic relationships. In the bedroom, you're apt to find that the Bull is a creative and expressive lover with a high sex drive. It's just another aspect of their vital nature, one that finds pleasure in everyday things and has an eye for beauty.

wahaha....
POSTED AT 11:17 PM

imacoffeejunkie

Your Personality Is

Rational (NT) You are both logical and creative. You are full of ideas. You are so rational that you analyze everything. This drives people a little crazy! Intelligence is important to you. You always like to be around smart people. In fact, you're often a little short with people who don't impress you mentally. You seem distant to some - but it's usually because you're deep in thought. Those who understand you best are fellow Rationals. In love, you tend to approach things with logic. You seek a compatible mate - who is also very intelligent. At work, you tend to gravitate toward idea building careers - like programming, medicine, or academia. With others, you are very honest and direct. People often can't take your criticism well. As far as your looks go, you're coasting on what you were born with. You think fashion is silly. On weekends, you spend most of your time thinking, experimenting with new ideas, or learning new things.

How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside. You say whatever is on your mind. Other people's reactions don't phase you. You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences. You tend to dream big, but you worry that your dreams aren't attainable.

Your Birthdate: September 13

Being born on the 13th day of the month should help make you a better manager and organizer, but it may also give you a tendency to dominate people a bit. You may be more responsible and self-disciplined than you realize. Sincere and honest, you are a serious, hard working individual. Your feeling are likely to seem somewhat repressed at times. You are apt to be much more practical, rational, and conscious of details. Your intolerance and insistence on complete accuracy can be irritating to some.

You Are 40% Left Brained, 60% Right Brained

The left side of your brain controls verbal ability, attention to detail, and reasoning. Left brained people are good at communication and persuading others. If you're left brained, you are likely good at math and logic. Your left brain prefers dogs, reading, and quiet. The right side of your brain is all about creativity and flexibility. Daring and intuitive, right brained people see the world in their unique way. If you're right brained, you likely have a talent for creative writing and art. Your right brain prefers day dreaming, philosophy, and sports.

Your EQ is

120 50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick! 51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese. 71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely. 91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that. 111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt. 131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin. 150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.